I’m not good at letting things go. For instance, today’s prompt for NaPoWriMo was to write a poem using a memory as the inspiration. I used a memory from when I was at primary school and the worst day of the year rolled around again. Sports Day.
Now I’m still not massively into fitness and I don’t think I ever will be. However, since primary school I have learnt where my strengths lie. I am good at long distances and surprisingly, I wasn’t too shabby at the high jump. Neither of these events were available in my primary school and instead I was forced to come last in pretty much every race and spend the first part of my childhood convinced that sport wasn’t for me. The worst event was probably the relay. I was so far behind that the teacher literally had me skip the last two challenges and run to the end instead because everyone had finished already. This was the memory I based my poem on for today’s NaPoWriMo.
Sports Day made me feel bad about myself. It highlighted my failings. The things I
couldn’t do. It took me a long while to realise that there were sports I could do, I just hadn’t found them yet. For the last couple of years I have run the 10k Race For Life at Tatton Park and set pretty respectable times. I love playing tennis when I get the chance, I enjoy swimming and doing pilates is a new hobby I’ve found a great enjoyment in. Sports has been something I had to weave my way through to find the aspects that I could achieve something in
The discovery challenge over at the Daily Post is talking about obstacles. Those things that get in your way and trip you up. The relay race was all about obstacles and while each task was manageable on its own, I couldn’t finish them at the same speed as everyone else. Two hundred children and their parents watched me fail and that has haunted me until this very day. So I suppose, the real obstacle I face every day, is my own doubts and worries.
Those of you who read the weekly link up ‘If We Were Having Coffee‘ might have seen some of my posts for the event. It’s hosted my the lovely Diana at PartTimeMonster.com. I try to make each one as positive and motivating as I can. This is because I know how often I focus on what I fail to achieve. What obstacles I fail to beat. I spend so much time looking at how I’m not where I want to be that I don’t think about how I’ve been taking steps to get myself closer to that goal. This is where ‘If We Were Having Coffee’ has really helped me to beat my own self imposed obstacles.
I have learnt that obstacles are best taken one at a time and that just because I don’t get over them the quickest, doesn’t meant that achievement means any less to me. If you take one thing away from this post, let it be that your achievements should never feel less than anyone else’s. If they mean something to you that’s what matters. We’re all different and it’s about tackling the obstacles and getting over them. Not about who gets to the finish line first.
Who knows, you might turn a slightly traumatic childhood memory into a positive blog post.