Poetry & Prose by Carol J Forrester
Your soundtrack never made sense.
The songs lined up oddly,
their lyrics a mismatch of words
too quickly spoken,
driven on by you racing to catch up
with the world moving around you.
I have tried to be the mooring post,
I have tried to be your life raft,
I wish that had been enough.
I wish I could tell you that I’m sorry
for ever being angry
at you.
This week I lost someone I cared about. It was sudden and unexplained. It’s still sinking in.
Carol J Forrester is a writer and a history geek. Her debut collection 'It's All In The Blood' came out November 2019. She has a 2:1 BA degree in history from Bath Spa University, enjoys judo at least twice a week, and tries to attend poetry events around the Midlands when she can. Her flash fiction story ‘Glorious Silence’ was named as River Ram Press’ short story of the month for August 2014 and her short story ‘A Visit From The Fortune Teller’ has been showcased on the literary site Ink Pantry. Her poems ‘Sunsets’ and ‘Clear Out‘ were featured on Eyes Plus Words, and two of her poems were included in the DVerse Poets Pub Publication ‘Chiaroscuro’ which is available for purchase on amazon.Her poem ‘Until The Light Gets In‘ was accepted and published at The Drabble and her poem ‘Newborn’ was published by Ink Sweat & Tears. She has been lucky enough to write guest posts for sites such as Inky Tavern and Song of The Forlorn and has hosted a number of guest bloggers on her site Writing and Works. View all posts by Carol J Forrester
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I can understate these thoughts. I’ve lived with them for awhile. My husband committed suicide almost seven-years-ago. Praying for you as you heal.
My deepest sympathies about your husband. I don’t actually know how my friend has died yet, I’m waiting to hear more about the actual circumstances.
My heartfelt condolences for your loss Joanna. (((hugs)))
Thank you.
Oh no. I’m sorry.
Please accept my condolences for your loss and I will keep you in my thoughts.
This resonates with me regarding someone I haven’t lost yet, but every day I wonder that it might be the last. “I have tried to be your life raft, / I wish that had been enough.” Sadly, it never seems to be enough. May you find comfort in the hope that your lost loved one knew how much you cared.
Hugs! This is a beautiful poem and easy to relate to.
Thank you.
So sad when it happens… and most of all regrets.. (which we shouldn’t have)… but there is no way of reverting what’s been said and say what should have been said.
Indeed, but it’s hard not to go over things in your head and wonder if things might have turned out differently. From what I’ve learnt in the last few days it wouldn’t have mattered what I said or did in those last few months, the ending would have been the same.
Aw this is so sad. Thoughts with you.
I am so very sorry to read this and condolences 😦
So sorry for your loss..this is so poignant.
Thank you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Love to you. 💜
Thank you Kay.
Very touching.
Thank you. I’m glad you think so.
I feel I want to reach out to both you, Carol, and Joanna. The poem says it all.
I’m so deeply sorry. I wish there was something I could say to ease the pain. Sending prayers for solace and emotional hugs.
Thank you.
I am so sorry for your loss, Carol. You are brave to share it in your poem – I can feel your pain.
Thank you. I find I process most grief through poetry.
I am so sorry for your loss, Carol. It takes a lot of courage to share your pain with others. Big hugs to you.
Thank you, I appreciate it. Sharing isn’t something I struggle with, not dissecting my every action to try and find some reasoning for this outcome is another matter however.
My condolences, Carol. There are no words to lessen your pain but I pray that you heal soon.
Thank you.
The poem is so haunting and sad. I am so sorry for your loss and wish that the anger you felt you need no longer be ashamed of. I think it is only natural to be angry.
I think it is natural, but as with all things I will need to move past at some point. Thank you for the comment. 🙂