Will you still love me
when I got nothing but my aching soul
Lana Del Rey – Young And Beautiful
I take pride in my independence.
The way I make decisions for myself,
choosing how many rungs to climb,
which skill to equip my mind with,
which challenges to tackle next.
That is why when I stare at the ceiling,
listening to the rain outside our window
in the early hours before dawn breaks
I have to remind myself that this isn’t weakness.
I dare not tell people
how you stand guard against the blue days.
How you can peel the lead from my bones,
soothe the hurricanes in my head,
and find me among the shadows without a torch.
it is not right to need someone
but some days
I can’t do anything
but need you.
I have to remind myself that this is not weakness,
this is partnership,
and love doesn’t make me any less.
I am allowed to cling to you
when the world feels like it will blow away
because this thing between us
we built it
It’s Tuesday Poetics over at dVerse Poets Pub and tonight we have a musical theme to work with.
The prompt is to use a line from your favourite song to inspire a poem. I think I was meant to actually put the line in the body of the poem but I’m afraid I couldn’t work out how to do that with this piece without it sounding forced so I’ve left it at the top instead.
I’ve spent the last hour agonizing over this poem and I’m still not completely happy with the end but all I’m doing now is tweaking one word here and another there so I thought it best to just stop and hit publish before I ruin the whole piece. If you have any constructive feedback I’d really love to hear it.
If not, make sure you still check out the rest of the poets over at the pub as see what fantastic, musical muses they have dug up.
Thanks for reading.