Delaying

I suppose you’ll forget me at some point,
Just, can it be not quite yet?
Let me linger just a little longer still
In these memories you kept.
They never said that it was simple.
Life that is I mean.
We were never given hand guides
How boring would that have been!
We forged out own way through time,
Through the jungles of mess.
Stumbling through both love and hurt,
Then of course all the rest.
So I’ll suppose we’ll all forget at some point,
The adventures we had.
Living in the madness of life
Experiencing both the good and bad.
But can we wait just a little longer please?
Let me have just a sec
To relive just one more memory,
Before its time to forget.
You see I’m scared of what’s next.
I’ve never been there before,
No one really knows
What lies beyond death’s door.

Confusion

It’s weird.
But I feel…
If I write it down
Then maybe…
Maybe…
It will be more real.
Because you!
You’re safe.
You’re constant
You’re sanity!
My sanity!
No questions asked
Or confusion
Or false reliance.
You don’t expect…
Expect me…
To be anything,
Anything at all,
Except for me.

But I don’t think…
No it can’t…
Love?
Not us?
See you’re safe,
You’re sanity.
We’re best friends
That’s you and me!
So please.
Don’t say,
You want more.
Don’t wait,
Don’t knock
On that locked door.
I guess…
In some ways…
In some,
I love you.
But as a friend,
And only as.
But in that!
That way!
I cannot…
Could not…
Love you more.

So don’t say love.
No.
We’re not that.
See love can be fleeting,
But us?
We’re build to last.