#NaPoWriMo 2021 – Day One – Migraine Metropolis

It’s time to chase lights
whirl-pooled in static charge.

My aerial must have blown loose
with all the colours bursting through.

Tongue tied, this organ has turned rubber
and the words bounce back into my throat.

I am sorry I asked you to be quiet,
but this volume control seems to have broken.

Brass band clustered in the corner of my vision…
why only play spoons across brittle knees?

Wish I could make a cushion out of these bones
or drive one sharp enough through the pain point.

All this chaos petered out into a slow rocking
of landlocked sea sickness where I flounder.

Drown me in something other than brightness,
let me find a room dark enough in which to sleep.


Where The Water Breaks #DVersePoets #TuesdayPoetics

There’s a sheen to the water,

a swirl of slick, slurp, sludge

squirming up the beach

surfing old tidal rips

to suck down feathered flurries,

their bone stuck wings

submerged to make stones

with panicked beady eyes,

staring up at a surface

mirroring

startled starlings swooping

in a grey choked sky

and a small child

with a face still plump young,

trying to break the glass

with one fat finger,

all the while calling

for his mother to come

and look.

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Erosion

I imagined that she was some great coastal cliff. Stone strong for thousands of years, but now the sea has managed to find a way between the cracks and it’s taking her apart in chunks.

It doesn’t sound like a landslide though. She doesn’t shriek and splinter as pieces of her sheer away from herself. There’s only silence as another memory, another name, another face, slips beneath the waves and into darkness where it can’t be reached.

There are still pieces of her left. Like fossils, preserved inside the depths of the cliff face. On days where it seems like everything has crumbled, they can find a way to the light.

The willow withered

its roots turned to dust and ash

but it kindles still.

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Giggle Fit : End Of Week One – Staying Motivated

I’m starting to remember why I’ve never achieved any sort of peak of physical fitness. This me-gymexercise malarkey is hard! Instead of looking like the beautiful, graceful people in the stock photos, I’m red faced and falling over in my living room. I swear that I used to be able to stand on one leg easy. These days, well let’s just say that my head and the mantelpiece almost made an acquaintance that I’m very glad they avoided.

Yes, that’s me in the photo, looking like all the blood has decided that my face, my entire face, is the place to hang out these

In my defence, tonight was the first night I’ve been back to the gym since October and I managed to run 5k in 37:38. There may have been some patched were I was walking, and my feet now look like a treasure trail of blisters, but this is one of the fastest times that I’ve done 5k in. The fact that I took my inhaler before going to the gym meant that I didn’t dissolve into a wheezing mess six minutes into the run.

Looks like an inhaler won’t solve my red face issue however.

As well as being the first day back at the gym for 2017, today also marked a full week of getting up and doing seven minutes of yoga every morning with the app Asana Rebel. I haven’t met all of my yoga goals. I did want to try and do a little bit each night, but in the end this seems like an unreasonable goal so I’m focusing on five minutes every morning, and seeing what I can manage in the evening.

The app itself is fantastic and I’m in love with the five minute daily goals. These are the ones that I do each morning and I always feel better after I’ve completed them. Granted, this morning I was a little distracted by my own lack of balance for most of the exercises, but I’ve seen a remarkable improvement in that over the last week. Granted. I’m still like Bambi wearing roller-skates on ice, but some of the exercises are getting easier and seeing that so early on is really pushing me to keep going.

The explosion of confetti when you complete the first exercise of the day also helps but that probably says more about me than the app.

I bought the app for £29.99 and that covers the first year. It’s actually on the cheaper end of the fitness app scales as far as I’ve seen and offers just as much as anything else.

You get an email with meal ideas, and asides from the daily goal, there are more intensive programmes which you can follow of the course of 4/8/12 weeks, or one off workouts that you can pick depending on how you feel. ‘Yoga For Runners’, ‘Fatburn Yoga’, ‘Flow Yoga For Relaxation’. They vary in time and intensity, but I haven’t seen one longer than thirty minutes. This means there isn’t anything to stop you picking a few and having a go at them all within an hour and a half.

I’ll admit that I haven’t been as rigorous with my schedule as I planned to be. I decided to avoid is putting to much pressure on myself. I know that if I do that and I fail, I’ll fall into a pit of self-depreciation and will loose all motivation altogether. I’m also aware that I’m just getting back into fitness, and if I try to pile my plate too high at the start, I’ll end up stalling half way through. It’s better to pace myself and build up slowly.

This is why I’m not beating myself up about being a couple of days behind on the thirty day app challenge. Today I was meant to do 45 sit ups, 30 crunches, 30 leg raises and a 35 second plank and the idea of it makes me want to puke right now. I’m already aware that doing 5k straight off the bat was probably pushing myself to far and all I want to do is collapse into bed.

Tomorrow night is the first night back at Judo and Thursday is likely to be another night at the gym. I’m going to aim for three nights a week at the gym and on Thursday I’m planning on cutting the run down to 3k and doing a circuit of the weights to keep things varied.

[I also left the gym tonight thinking about how I basically paid someone to let me run on the spot for half an hour before going home.]

Last week’s posts got some lovely comments from fellow bloggers who offered their advice on staying motivated, so thank you o Cansu Ashley and Where Are We for the lovely tips.

Until next week, happy reading!

 

Giggle Fit: Work Outs That Work For Me – Health & Fitness

Every new year, and most days in-between, I make myself a promise that I’m going to head back to the gym, make the most of that membership that I’m paying for every month, and get myself in shape! However, I’m a relatively lazy person when it comes to fitness and while my good intentions may see me through a week or two of regular work outs, before long I’m be back on my settee, making excuses for not leaving the house.

I’m simply not very good at sticking to a fitness routine. I much prefer writing and reading, to squats and running, so chances are I’ll pick my office over the gym most days of the week.

But that isn’t doing me any favours.

Health-wise, 2016 was a year of discover.

I already knew that lack of physical activity was causing problems with my knees. After giving up ballet in year six I had failed to replace it with a similar hobby and I went for being as fit as a fiddle, to in my grandmother’s words ‘sedentary.’ This resulted in me losing muscle tone, and my kneecaps found they had more room to move.

Trust me. You don’t want to give your kneecaps room to move. It hurts.

The cure for my painful knees? Squats, stretches and other glute related physio to strengthen the muscles and keep those pesky kneecaps where they should be. Did I follow through with a religious regime of nightly exercises? No. Did I do them once a month? No. Do I know where the instruction sheet for those exercises are? Hell no. I’ve moved three times since then.

So, my knees still ache from time to time and I live with it. It wasn’t enough to get me to take care of myself.

Then 2016 rolls around and I get diagnosed with exercise induced asthma, prescribed an inhaler and a personal trainer looks at me in shock as he tells me how low the reading for muscle in my body is.

It feels like I’m falling apart. Almost quite literally if you think about my knees.

So I decide to do something about it.

In October I joined a Judo club that meets on Wednesdays and started attending. I’m not there every week but it’s a great workout and I enjoy the company. Some weeks are harder than others, and getting thrown to the mat by a child half your age can be something of an ego blow, but you have to remind yourself that they’ve been doing this a lot longer than you.

[Throwing a child half your age to the mat is also terrifying. Luckily they seem to spring straight back up.]

Judo wasn’t enough though, and it still holds my old pitfall of ‘I have to go outside so if it’s particularly cold or I don’t feel 100% I can cry off’. I know, I know, I’m a wimp.

So, in addition to Judo, I decided I’m working my way through two fitness apps on my phone. The first being ’30 Day Ab Challenges’ which I’ve started on Beginner Level 1 and the second being ‘Asana Rebel‘, a yoga based app that supplies numerous work out plans for all manner of goals. [*Ahem* Even the more saucy ones.]

I’m currently on day 3 of the 30 Day Ab Challenges, and day 1 of Asana Rebel’s ‘Life and Body Transformation 2017’.

 

At the moment I look like this: img_1581

I want to make it clear that I’m not doing this to loose weight. At 55kg I don’t feel like I need to loose anything, and when I look in the mirror I don’t feel fat, I just feel out of shape.

I want to feel strong and empowered. Having my inhaler means that when I run I can keep up my pace without being forced to slow because I’m wheezing so loud the whole gym can hear. 2016 taught me that I am capable of more than I thought, and the first time I ran after getting my inhaler I couldn’t believe it.

I’d been told to take it half an hour before exercising but I didn’t think it would have that much of an impact. Turns out that what I believed to be lack of fitness was actually my asthma playing up and that first run was a thing of beauty. I felt unstoppable.

So that is what 2017 is going to be about for me: getting stronger.

To keep on track I’m introducing a new side to Writing and Works. Every Tuesday I’m going to post a ‘Giggle Fit’ update about how I’m getting along with the apps and my Judo, and how I’m working out what work outs work for me. [Try saying that six times fast.]

If you’re using the apps as well, or doing something else to stay in shape I would love to hear your input too. Let me know how your fitness resolutions are coming along. Any tips for keeping up the motivation? The comments section is down below.